1/30 If you were able to receive an unrelenting flow of fearlessness in one area of life- where would that area be and why?
My answer to this question may come as a bit of a surprise, but I would choose to have no fear in my relationship with God. I know that I ‘talk about God’ for a living, I see vocational ministry as a part of my life in one way or another forever, and I write many things online that center around God and his greatness. But if you were to take a peak into the most authentic parts of my soul, you would see the same fears you might have about God.
Is all of this actually real? Does he really care about me? Am I turning into someone irrelevant to the world? Am I believing all of this to make myself feel better or for my own comfort? Am I one of those weird Christians? Can the claims of Jesus be true?
Fears in the form of doubt surface DAILY in my walk with Jesus. Sometimes I drive around in my car after encouraging someone to pursue God in all areas of life and think- if this isn’t true, not only does that affect every single area of my life, but now it affects multiple other lives around me. That’s heavy. Weighty and completely terrifying.
So in an ideal world, I would have no fear and no doubt about Jesus, the things of God or the promises in his word. Then I could be happy, satisfied, and sure all the time.
I’m here to tell you, friend, that the doubts that surface in your head and heart about this whole faith-thing don’t need to be immediately dismissed in shame. They should be welcomed and dissected. I have found the other side of doubt is often more faith. Where there were once holes in my understanding of God, there are now secure anchors all because I allowed doubt to have their time and place.
So even though I desire a fearlessness in my relationship with God, I don’t think that would mean doubts would vanish in an instant. Instead, I desire a fearlessness in my relationship with God when it comes to the cues, company and concern of other people. Fear of man has always been my achilles heel of sin. The one that takes me further away from the arms of God and faster into the destructive path of self-reliance.
So fearlessness in God would mean I would say more hard things, love more openly, invite more questionable conversations, and talk about Jesus with average strangers because fearlessness in God would automatically mean fearlessness of his people, their thoughts, judgments and preconceived notions.
Fearlessness in God would allow me to really love my husband even when I'm afraid I've caused a wedge to go up between us.
Fearlessness in God would mean I would raise my daughters according to God's word even though that may not always be popular, easy or understood.
Fearlessness in God would mean I would write and write and write because the thoughts of myself and others matter very little compared to what I believe he has called me to.
Fearlessness in God would mean I would look people in the eye more and encourage the Jesus I see in them even when it makes them extremely uncomfortable.
Fearlessness in God would mean I would cry more. A lot more. Letting go of my 'strong-woman' false alter-ego. (Amen?)
Fearlessness in God would mean I would believe Him. In all he says. And pray like He could do anything.
A fearlessness in God would affect everything in my life for the better. If we get our part right with God, all else falls into place. I think there's a verse that says something like that actually...
Where do you most need fearlessness? What about the people around you? Leave a comment below or engage with someone about this very question today. Life improves dramatically when fears are talked about and become small.